Dear Diary of a Homeschool Mom,
I’m sure I am not the only one. I know for a fact, I’m not.
I have my options.
- Like other moms, I will consider pushing the boys HARD to finish every page of every book, and hope they grasp most of it.
- I can assess each boy’s skill level per subject, and have them skip over things that they might already know.
- I can subscribe to year round homeschooling…. (NOOOOOOOooooooo!)
- I can have the boys stop where they are and pick up where they left off next year.
Or I can just relax and be okay with where they are now in each book, do my best to finish in the next couple of weeks, and know that most of the last chapters of each subject are discussed again next year (most of the time, depending on subject and grade)….
I was flipping through my seventh grader’s English notebook this morning. I had been giving myself a really hard time for allowing him too much independence the second half of this year. I wondered if he had really applied himself, if he had really read and studied as he went, or if he was just skimming the page. I entertained thoughts like, “maybe he would have learned more in a school setting”, and “what if I have done him a disservice by keeping him home to learn with me?” But the notebook……
It reminded me.
Because in it, he had written
- about how the letters from the word L O R D sound like breathing in Hebrew.
- about how happy he was that Drew was tough and would be a really great UFC fighter someday.
- how a wise man loves God, fears God, and honors God with his words, thoughts, and actions.
- a story about a man named Bob who went skydiving and SMACK broke his leg in half, but required no surgery.
- how to make potato chips. (He’s a good cook and they were so yummy!)
- that “duty makes us do things well, but love makes us do things beautifully.”
I could go on, but that was enough.
Duty makes us do things well. It’s true. I chose to homeschool these boys because I feel it’s my duty. But more importantly, I do it because I love them and I love God and want to be obedient to Him.
So whether or not we’re at the end of each book at the close of this school year, it is okay. Because I’ve seen with my own eyes the beauty of watching my boys draw closer to God. To their parents. And to each other. I’ve witnessed them learn more about God as they probably would not have done in a different school setting. I’ve eaten the potato chips.
Maybe it’s been messy. Maybe I haven’t stuck to a rigid schedule enough. Maybe I should have slept more this past year. And maybe a lesson goes unfinished til next year.
It’s okay. We’ll work it out.
Love makes us do things beautifully.
Humbled and grateful,